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Father God I do not know from whence the blessing will come – be it from the East, West, North or South but no other day that I have felt that it was this close than today – right now.  This morning while getting ready for work and while driving to work I just mused over the thought after seeing a woman walking across the street, who isn’t homeless but her soul is.  She is holding on to anger and a hurt that no one knows the depths of but her.  I said a prayer for her and blessed your name Father because I would rather hold on to you until you bless me – any way you want to bless me – instead of hold on to pain, hurt, disappointment, failure or unbelief.  Why hold on to it when we have the choice in the matter to choose better?  We can choose to hold on to God’s unchanging hand and promises? 

I was able to speak it today, aloud and boldly and it was so refreshing, rejuvenating and exhilarating – to speak unfathomable promises to someone who has no idea what hoping against hope is and can do for a life of a believer of Christ Jesus.  You gave me the opportunity Father to stand on a word that you had placed in my heart just minutes before.  Tracy (my Manager), was carrying on about how Cris (my Co-worker), as going to be well off in fifteen years when he gets his second retirement from the Navy.  Mind you – he has already put in his first 20 years and is returning to active service. 

Retirement seems to be the running theme and the root of where my fear, if that is what I want to call it, stems from.  All of my life I have resisted a regimented and incarcerated life.  All of my life I have believed for more and ever since I have trusted you that first time as far back as I can remember, I have been hooked.

That first instance when you kept my mother from finding out that I had gotten into trouble in school.  I had prayed for the first time that I can remember and I remember distinctly that it was you who kept your promise to me; it was then back in grade school that I remember knowing that you were real, not just “that person” or “that God” who I had heard through preachers or people – I knew for myself.

On a daily basis I hear people talk themselves out of the very blessing that they say that they are standing in need of – They are either speaking doubt or they are speaking unbelief.  Today I received confirmation in my spirit that I may as well speak what it is that I want and believe God for it!

If we don’t believe that you are well-able Father, then why serve you?  There is a blessing in the privilege to speak God’s word.  There is power in declaring his word and promises over our own lives and see it blossom just as he said that it would. 

My spirit keeps telling me that there is more… And I simply believe that there is – MORE!