I Didn't Come This Far Only To Come This Far…

I’m a liar because at times I keep telling myself something that surely isn't true.  Jesus already said that “The devil is a liar”, so there’s no need for me to repeat it.  Both he and I know what shall become of him, so I pray for the enemy (I really do and I pray that God forgives even him, because to be separated from the Father – Well… I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy) and God said that we should pray for our enemies… Satan isn't our greatest enemy – in fact, “WE” are our own worst enemy.  He has done no worse to me than I have done to myself, if truth be told, I have done worse… AND he’s my enemy???  Get your mind off Satan and get your mind on what YOU are doing and that will be enough to take you a lifetime.

What I need to deal with is what I keep lying to myself about, “That I am in this faith-walk for nothing”, “That I cannot keep going”, and “That I’m too tired to fight another day”.  Just earlier before sitting down to write this missive, I told myself that I was too sinful to write and that I just needed to lay off for a while. 

Not only I know what I've done but he knew before I would even do it and yet in still he gave the clearance to still speak on his behalf because I repented and I asked to be forgiven and redeemed.  Only he knows how I fall short daily of his glory and he still tells me that he chose me.  Who wouldn't serve a God like that?

You don’t need to know all the particulars, but I know that for him to have forgiven me and looked past my sin until this moment wherein I am writing with thankfulness in my heart, and still with a heart heavy and one that is doing all that it can to not remember, replay or rehash those thoughts that made me question my sanity, my hope for a better future in him, and even to consider doing them again; and that he is still able to keep me on track to my Land of Promise. 

Why is it that when we experience a victory, immediately the enemy of our souls come in and try and snatch it out by the root, all that God had planted?

All I know is that “I didn't come this far too only come this far…” “Yolanda M. Smothers is a Liar” and I am glad to be one today.  A self-straightening is one of the hardest points to come to but in order to overcome; we must first learn to accept to overcome ourselves.