Love of My Life

"Love of My Life"

When I finally sign the deed for the home of my dreams – I will get in the full garb of makeup, hair, and wardrobe and jump in the pool or the hot tub. Because it will be as such and such… what is it to me? Nothing but pomp and circumstance that pales in the face of what you have done Father. As I told Momma today – I have nothing to lose by trusting you but everything to gain. It takes determination that exceeds human ability, but rather unparalleled faith in order to see the great things of you Father. And I simply believe, I only believe that there is a greater life already out in front of me and that I have to have the faith in order to rent the veil in two to be able to see it and walk into in fully.

I choose to chronicle my life and my walk because people need to know what kind of dedication is necessary to see greatness in God. Not money, not works, not good deeds. Yes – all those things are good but it takes Faith on top of Faith – day in and day out in order to surpass the understanding of what the human mind is capable of believing. Being human we can only go so far, see so far and do so much. All things are possible to those of us that believe in you Father.

One day someone might read my writings and be inspired to walk with you until their soul draws to them what belongs to them out of the spirit. It’s not about possessions but about seeing you Father God do it. Do what? To do exactly what it is that you said in your word - every promise – every jot and every tittle. Some are hopeless romantics. Call me a hopeless believer.

This is a courtship of sorts between you and I Father. You love me like known other and you just blow and boggle my mind. I enjoy our time together and I grow sick and disturbed if you and I are not together constantly. I remember feeling that way about lovers in my life and they could hardly understand me or where it was that I was coming from. I kept telling them to love me but they didn't know how to. You loved me perfectly and it came without me ever having to ask. You are the love of my life.

I have wasted a lot of time, breath, words and emotion on all types of people and things and I have also failed at giving those things to others who needed it from me. Therefore, I have chosen to no longer waste my time, breath, words or emotion on anything that isn't uplifting to you and the advancement of your kingdom; anything else is a utter waste of precious time.

Erykah Badu had hip-hop as the love of her life – You Lord are mine. “ooOh you know you rock my world and you be boy and I ll be girl and… ehhh ehhh ehhhh…. “